a day i wud nvr recovered for period of time

Writing a deep feeling,thought is what i did the least in blogs. Eventually its hard to find a person who can really listen to what i experience sometimes, rather than best friends. As i got back my designs today, it tremendously affected me a lot, what i experience, i observe for so long time. The fact is that it's true from what i analyse. I would not say whether it is the person who affected the work itself that much, that it would bring such impacts to me, that i feel my design is a piece of shit,rubbish. In my mind when i receive this pack of thing, it's a lot of "fuck" word in my mind. Am i bad?terrible?or is the person too bias of giving me marks?Oh damn in my 1 year+ of academy in theone i nvr experience such things b4. I nvr did well?or i fucked up everything?i dono, i just think it's not my problem much. Or instead on how much i try hard,putting extreme efforts, doing researches and arrangements properly, putting art senses on it, it still won work..why?an impression has been laid to them that i am a terrible designer?I always hate comments that are reli giving me suspicious whether i shud trust or not. Friends would advice me dun think that way, well it's just too hard to accept it. Mayb how much you do, it won impress them at all or yourself, cause eventually you will know the results that they would give out. No point i invest it this subject itself, instead im enjoying my other subjects as well. Sometimes choosing a major that i want, interested in doesn't reflect what i want when i have outcome on it. "Beauty of design" is always hiding,recovering everything, the designs and visuals even though u bullshit ur concept that doesn't even relate to what u design at all. I always belief in simplicity designs, but now i totally dun believe it anymore! Whole thing is just a fking thing for me! Presentation is just an unnecessary thing at all!